berfikir...

aku ni jenis yg jarang berfikir. aku slalu ikutkan perasaan. especially when making a decision. so today i try to think for a while. i try to think properly abt my life, what i need, what i want and what is best for me. but the result is nothing. i guess i need to train myself, my brain to start thinking...*sigh*

kalau aku leh berpk sure aku dah taip panjang2 cam kengkawan ku yg lain...hafezh, pizli n wardina....camne korunk ader idea nak menaip panjang2 ek...sbb korang slalu berpk kan...tak cam aku...aku tak reti berpk...tak kira la pape...most of my decision is based on my emotion...then after a while baru la aku leh berpk secara rasional...contohnyer kalau org yg aku suka call...aku jadi neves gile babas (cik jihan tau la camner gilenye aku)...atau time tu aku suka...aku pun tak pk panjang aku buat decision...tapi bile perasaan tu dah hilang aku baru la sedar aku dah silap....and i know i'll hurt somebody feeling

dulu tak obvious sgt coz i've someone i can rely on every decision...every step that i take or make i always refer to him...everything that i do i'll always tell him...but now takde dah...so i try to change it by telling my mom or my sis or my friends but they're different...i dunno how to explain this....tapi different la...so much different :-(.... i'm very pathetic gurl am i? eh gurl lagi ke aku ahaks...heheh

so now i'm trying to be wiser...making my own decision...pray for me my friends so i can live normally like everyone else...

p/s: right now i feel... i want to cry..huhuhu...sedih tiba2...asal lak emo skang nih...i need someone to hug me....mommy...huhuhuh...