Bad feeling

Hati rasa tak sedap. Risau. Nak bernafas pun rasa tak lancar. Why? Either something bad happen or i've been thinking too much. Well i'm a -ve thinker person. I like to think d worst so that when its happen, im not gonna be effected so much. Like now im thinking he's just playing with me. I feel like he doesnt really mean all the things he said. Well never trust a guy. I've learned it from d previous relationships.

The other night, i feel something wrong somewhere n my mind kept thinking that he done something bad behind my back. But it turn out he had problem with his ex-gal n wateva person who is there. Well i cant really understand d story but i know that he's really pissed of with his ex-gal. That make me jelous a bit. Of course, coz im afraid he might still have feeling for her.

Then yesterday, he really down bcoz of sumthing. Well usually when he is like that, he want to be with someone he luv. Well coz im his special someone now (my -ve mind telling : that what he said la but he doesnt mean it). "No one means all he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thought is viscous" (Henry Adams).

All I can do now is wait for the time to come when we will meet to see whether he really true to his words or not. But my -ve mind telling me not to believe him. He just playing with my heart. Oh how i wish i know the truth now. Hope the truth behind he's action will be reveal soon. Play safe. That's what i should do rite. Or else i will be broken hearted again. Well my fragile heart can easily be broken. Anyway i know i will survive. Life must go on. That's what i've to do.

p/s: I felt relieved a bit after writing what i've felt here. *sigh